Thursday, September 29
Current Mood:
GloomyCurrent Music: We Used to Be Friends - Dandy Warhols
Because I need to post more than twice in a month. Blogger cannot become vanquished. Will not.
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Still haven't written LAW essay. I am so...fug. I am just so unhappy at the moment that it goes beyond writing an essay or any other spiritual misgiving. I just need to be...different and change myself from what I am now. I am not doing what I want, I'm not happy at all about my situation or the people around me or the way I am. I hate what holds me back and I hate what I'm doing now instead of actually doing my work. I hate that I can't understand or stop myself from doing self-destructive things to myself. It just feels wrong but I keep doing it. If I don't do the essay now, I will be rushing it on Monday. If I eat another bit of food, I'm going to expand. Its just as hard to kick a coke or a ciggratte habit as it is to stop being the way I am, shy and introverted and constantly lying about myself. God, I feel so weak and sick and sad and just plain in the dumps. I really need a pick-me-up or something. I don't know what. Hopefully after exams...that is if I get through them first.
Dear god. Mergh. Okay, Law Essay first and Stats Assignment and then...then...
~ M.M.W ~
